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Sobreviviendo a mis muertos
Surviving My Dead
You don’t get over your dead. You learn to live with them dead. That is not the same thing.
There are grief books that promise to teach you how to let go, find closure, heal your wounds, and discover meaning after loss. This is not one of them.
Sobreviviendo a mis muertos was born from burying too many people, too early, and discovering that death does not automatically turn anyone into a wise, peaceful, spiritually enlightened human being.
Sometimes you learn something. Sometimes you get angry. Sometimes you laugh at a funeral and feel guilty five seconds later. Sometimes you keep a phone number for ten years even though you know perfectly well no one will ever answer.
And sometimes you simply keep living because morning came again and there are things that still need to be done.
That is what this book is about: what happens after everyone else goes home and the person who survived has to go home too.
A book about the dead. But mostly about those of us who remain alive.
Yenny Astrid Londoño became acquainted with death far too young. At fifteen, she learned that an ordinary conversation can become the last one without warning.
More losses followed. Some sudden. Some expected. Some far away. Others painfully close.
Over time, she learned the procedures: funeral homes, cemeteries, phone calls, paperwork, flowers, schedules, and all the absurdly practical obligations that appear while you are still trying to understand what the hell just happened.
What she never learned was a formula for getting used to it. Because there isn’t one.
Sobreviviendo a mis muertos does not turn grief into a beautiful story about thanking the universe. It does not turn dead people into saints simply because they stopped breathing.
It remembers them as human beings: with virtues, flaws, jokes, arguments, things they left resolved and other things they left completely screwed up.
Because loving someone completely also means remembering them completely.
“I didn’t get over my dead. I learned to live with them dead. That is not the same thing.”
What the Book Contains
A personal story shaped by loss without turning pain into spectacle.
You will find funerals and phone calls that split a life into before and after, guilt over what was said and what was never said, the ridiculous logistics that begin five minutes after tragedy, the fear of losing the people who are still here, faith when answers stop being enough, the belongings of the dead, dates, dreams and memory.
And humor.
Because even at a funeral somebody eventually says something ridiculous.
Because life has absolutely no respect for narrative tone.
And because some pain, after enough years, can be looked straight in the face without loving the person who died any less.
Chapters
- Introduction
- 1. The News Never Comes Alone
- 2. The World Did Not Stop to Ask
- 3. The Call Nobody Wants to Make
- 4. What Death Takes Besides the Person
- 5. The Dead Leave. Their Things Stay
- 6. Funerals Are for the Living
- 7. Guilt Always Finds a Place to Sit
- 8. When I Got Angry at God Too
- 9. The Living Start Dying in Your Head Too
- 10. The Damn “At Least”
- 11. Some Dead People Are Still Breathing
- 12. My Mother Does Not Fit Inside the Word “Dead”
- 13. I’m Afraid I’ll Forget How They Laughed
- 14. Dreams About the Dead
- 15. Surviving the Calendar
- 16. Keep Going
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Frequently Asked Questions
- Is Sobreviviendo a mis muertos a self-help book about grief?
- No. It does not offer steps, exercises, methods, or formulas for overcoming loss. It is a work of personal narrative about death, grief, memory, family, and the life that continues afterward.
- Where can I buy Sobreviviendo a mis muertos?
- This exclusive digital edition is not for sale. It is available free to readers who subscribe to the newsletter at yennyastrid.com.
- Is the book based on real experiences?
- Yes. The book draws from Yenny Astrid Londoño’s personal experiences with death and loss, told through her own memory and perspective.
- Is it a sad book?
- It is a book about death and grief, so pain is part of it. But so are sarcasm, dark humor, family, absurd memories, and all the contradictions that continue to exist even when someone dies.
- Do I need to have lost someone recently to read it?
- No. It is a book about death, but also about memory, guilt, family, fear, love, and the strange task of continuing to live after losing someone.
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